“Sayonara” emerged in a burst of light. As a feminist, I felt pulled powerfully to support a woman’s right to choose what would happen to her own body, and as a womanist, I also found that the right to choose became a weapon of oppression against women whose bodies and souls felt connected intimately to the children growing within them. I felt that abortion makes women better sex toys for men, and many women who have the procedure ache for years afterward, feeling strongly that they’ve killed somebody.

When I was pregnant, I dreamed of a baby blowing bubbles in the amniotic fluid, telling me, “Protect me.” I felt very strongly that this spirit would be brought to earth through my body. It truly meant choosing life, honoring spiritual connection beyond this world of form.

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